Back after long time

yeah..it has been a long time..last day of the year !!

frozen inside..thoroughly dried out !!

running away from fantasies

born out of speculations

honking all the way

japing me , tantalizing me

dont spill the beans

dont look for mount

its not failure, nor submisssion

its unconcern , loath for sure

somebody is choking

tyranically being subservient

as clash of sentiments

bringing forth barren arguments

cereberations and considerations

fermentation washes away

someone bestow me life

frozen inside..thoroughly dried out !!

Jab We Met - II

Read Jab We Met - I and here goes the continuation :

Pari ki dost mujhe dekh kar hass padi
maano meri to lottery hi nikal padi

Kismat ne saath tab diya
jab uski dost ne mujhe 'Hi' kiya

arey mere neeche ki jameen khisak gayi
Dostoon.. vo to mere college ki dost nikal gayi

usne mujhe pass bulaya, aur pari se introduce karaya
thoda sa mein ghabraya, par mauke ko nahi gavaya

mene pari se najaar milai
vo najar churate hue sharmayi
thodi si sharam mujhe bhi aayi,
par himmat kar ke baat badai

chupke chupke vo mujhe dekh rehi thi
jaise koi ishaarein kar rehi thi
dheeme se meri baaton par vo hasti thi
reh-reh kar mujhko deewana karti thi

baaton hi baaton mein time nikal gaya
aur pyar ka bukhar mujh par chad gaya

ab raaton mein na neend thi, din mein na chen tha
uski ek jhalaak paane ko taras raha mera mann tha

raha nahi gaya, dard saha nahi gaya

dost se gujarish kari
pari se milne ki khwahish kari
dost mera dard samajh gayi
jugaad lagane mein vo lag gayi

usne meri sifarish lagayi,
aur Barista mein meeting fix karayi
phir 17 taarekh ke vo shaam aayi,
khushi ke pal mere naam layi

uss crowded place mein bhi kitni khamoshi thi
samne vo bethi thi, shayad uski hi madhoshi thi

na usse propose kiya, na haal-e-dil sunaya
seedi-sachchi baatein karke, usko apna fan banaya

phone number dete hue apne dil ki baat vo boli
hooton se na bolkar, aankhon se sab raj kholi

baatein hui, majak hue
kitne ek jaise hai hum, dillo mein ehsaas hue

phone ki baatein, roj ki mulakaaton mein badal gayi
adhuri jindagi uske saath se sawar gayi

wo mera din hai, wo meri shaam hai
meri puri jindagi uske naam hai

do saal ho gaye,ye rishta waise hi barkarar hai
ab to dono ko bus saat-pheroon ka intezaar hai

Bitter Reality

Crouching in a corner with insecurity
Just wondering about world's sanity
I flared and went out
It was impassionate outburst full of insomniacity

Doing the things..being governed by others
I dont find in my heart any alacrity
Breaking the shackles,untying the knots
Yes..I am showing my resistivity

Raised my feet..stretched my arms
Stars were still out of proximity
Someone stabbing me from back
Dragging me back in the world of obscenity

Its only an apprehension, not my infidelity
Because I find everything indifferent, in this world of disparity
I feel sinking in a pool of wile
Giving a cry out of atrocity

This seems to most, a thing of lucidity
Deep inside my soul, I feel its gravity
Here i stand in world of ferocity
Suffering..worn out..dying..a bitter reality

Puppet

Me lost in a paradox..looking for Panacea..to heal the blunted thoughts but the Hysteria still remains untouched..an unquenched Thirst.

I am in a labyrinth..alone Straddling..getting Rusted..Struggling.

Struggling to forge, to persuade, to surpass the limits, to refill my substance

Straddling..an option ?? Never...but Puppet to circumstances. Rusted..loosing the self..longing for desires..compromising with situations.

"Being a puppet is not my will,

Neither can I wait to get knots ill,

Just being driven by situatios in my control,

but not letting my wishes getting kill"

Rust is neither replenishing nor rottening my desires..it is just speeding down my progress.

Being not govern by your will is being puppet.

Are you actually doing what you actually wanted and not being driven by someone else.NOooooooo.Then you too are a puppet..you struggle but finally ends into a PUPPET

Infidelity is acceptable !!

We broke up..to be honest I got ditched.
Three year long relationship has finally come to an end. How wonderful were those days..what fun we had. She was worth all.. time I spent thinking about her, money I spent dining with her, energy I spent talking to her on phone.

Now, I stand alone..with broken heart..hopeless and deserted. Now whenever I call her, her mobile is busy and whenever I approach her, she is busy.

If it had been a mutual break-up , I wouldnt have minded. But she dumped me. Insult !!
Once stuck by Cupid's arrow, now I fell the pain. I remember Justin Timberlake's song now - "
What goes around, goes around, goes around Comes all the way back around "

And now what shall I do to reduce this pain ??

Shall I start smoking or drinking ? In this way, I can channelize my time,money and energy which were all for her once.
Or shall I hang out with my friends- parties, movies, disco etc. so that I have no time to think about her.
I can engage myself in different activities to keep myself busy .
Or shall I start looking for someone new ??

I ruled out first option because i am afraid what if I turn out to be Devdas !! I dont want to get betrayed so I scratched out fourth option also. I tried option second but failed.Reason, how can my friends be daily free.. afterall they all have girlfriends. Option 3 seems to be Ok.And I tried my best but failed to control my mind. It automatically gets tuned to her.

I have finished listening all the tragic songs. Even torn her letters and cards. Oh sorry, actually deleted her mails. Now, I realized, how miser she was. She hasnt given me a single card not even Bday card. I have deleted all her SMS also. Let the phone no. be there. U never know, may need it sometime.

But you know one thing, inspite of all these pain, there is some feel-good factor. I feel more free now. I feel rejuvenated.I have space for myself.
I think, I need more time, to know what exactly I want. For time being, I am enjoying this pain.

NOTE : This is a work of fiction and any resemblance to person living or dead is purely coincidental !!

GOD and SOCIETY

As known to all, in the primtive era, we humans were uncivilized. Man was living..just for the sake of living. There were no rules n regulations, no customs n traditions..there was nothing like society. There were miseries, bloodshed, violence as there was no fear and no respect for each other. However, man was afraid of the forces of nature - rain, wind, sun, etc for which he had no solution.

Mysterious and unanswered questions were termed as God which were basically forces of nature. Things for which there were no logical reasons were God. Things beyond human-control were God.

And from this evolved the concept of religion and society. Society was established and rules were set. People have to follow them to make world a better place to live. Otherwise, Might is Right would have ruled and ruined everything.. God was considered as the pivot and goal of each was to do good deeds so as to make God happy. Because ultimate aim was to attain nirvana..that is to reach Heaven, the God's abode. Else God will punish you.

As science started answering those mysteries, faith on God started shaking. More number of people turned into atheists.

I dont know whether God exist. And there is nothing much to prove his existence also. But still his presence is must. Like
* A drunkard wont go to temple drunk
Faith in God stops him from boozing that day.
*People celeberate diwali,id,chistmas and other religious festivals.
God brings the people together to share their happiness
* There is lot of charity on God's name
God make them philanthropic

God gives hundreds of reasons to people to unite, live happily and smile !!

Nomophobia

Alexander Graham Bell - " Mr. Watson. Come here !"
These are the words which laid the foundation of the world of telecommunication.

Mobile phones have revolutionized the world of communication. They have made life so easy that earth seems to contract into one small network-ball.
Mobile phones are no longer a luxury, rather they have become a necessity.

Now, just imagine a day without your mobile phone. You will feel something missing in life..as if you have lost contact with the world. Such fear of being away from your mobile phone or being out of mobile phone contact is Nomophobia.

Few days back, I read an article on this. Researches are being done on this syndrome. People have become so addicted to mobile-phones that a fear has grown in them of losing it.
Now who are the one who suffers most from this phobia - men or women ?
You must have guessed that they are women because they are the one who are most talkative.
But study shows that men are the bigger victims.
Mobile phones have plagued the life so much that people are afraid to switch off their mobiles also.

She !!

She tell convenient lies, but i still believe that she is true
She fakes, but i still believe that she is genuine
She pretends, but i still believe that she is real
She blabbers, but i still believe that she is making sense

Why ? Why ?? Why ??? But why I believe all that..may be because

When she laughs, everything gets brightened up
When she acts, smile spreads acroos several countenance
When she speaks, ears turn to listen to her
When she is not around, I feel anxious

She teases me, quarrels with me, pulls my leg
but i know she cares about me and is my greatest asset

She often diagrees with me, but she still patiently listens to me
She knows that i am wrong, but she still supports me
She knows that it is silliest joke, but she still laughs with me

she...She....SHE..... Oh God !! Who is that SHE ?? Where is that SHE ???

Floating Value

I am an adulterated non-terminating floating value which is seeking for infinity...but rounded off conveniently by the world to a value as per their requirement

I am tampered and manipulated to loose my essence and charm..but still struggles to survive.

I am exploited..fitted and equated with others..to finish some task but I make them loose their accuracy. This is my only way of revenge.
I will never let them to reach the PERFECTION.

I know that they will use some trick or tactics..they will conspire..but still my impact will be fatal.

Dont set me in bounds or cast me in your moulds. Give me FREEDOM..its everyone's right and so is mine

Jab We Met - I

Kal dikhi forum mein, saj-sawar ke vo aayi thi
usko dekh cupid ne, mere dil mein ghunti bajayi thi

kya lag rehi thi, kya jum rehi thi
par shayad window-shopping vo kar rehi thi

Mein sharmaya, collar chadaya
baal banakar, style mein aaya
par dimaag mera tab gadbadaya, jab saath uske ek ladke ko paya

khub khil-khila rehi thi, baatein bana rehi thi
dil ko mere vo reh-reh kar jala rehi thi

mein nirash tha, jindagi se hataash tha
itne kareeb tha, phir bhi door apna saath tha

Bhujti lau phir fad-fadayi,
vo usko bhaiya keh kar bulai

Bhaiya mere rakhi ke bandhaan ko nibhana,
usko apni behna aur mujhe apna jija bulana

saath mere ek dost tha,
jisko mila hua naari-jati se moksh tha

ladkiyon se vo bachtah tha,
' what the hell ' unhe dekh kar kehta tha

mujhe keechte hue bola, 'arey chal yaha se '
mein bola, abey ruk, jara nazar to mila le
aur itne tu uske bhai se kaam chala le

tabhi us pari ki ek aur dost waha aa gayi
mere pyaar ki lau phir fad-fada gayi

dil dol gaya, kuch samajh na aaya
tab ' old is gold ' ka funda mene lagaya

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Renaissance

blindly advocated civic protocol
turning him into a bird of passage
ruthlessly justified, blindly admired
a confluence of deeds and thoughts
never intercepted, never ruptured
fermenting legacy
an unanswered paradigm paralysing whole city

he sees, he follows
unable to bear the pretence, he spits
expands horizon to retain the edge
challenges..struggles...sets his own substance
moulds believes , casts opinions
Havoc...a stampede of deeds and thoughts
ah..evolution turning to revolution !!

a thought..

I daze, I wonder..
exonerated remains convicted throughout
whole life is mortgage for justice
everything gets stuck in the rut
it longs to revert
but only anarchist brings down the realm
he is alleged, he is forged
but he remains obvious and underscore
is that the law of nature ?
or is this the way to attain ??

Jai Jai Money

I : There are a few thougts which are disturbing me and that i want to discuss.

Me : What...Tell me

I : Why are you working or doing job ??

Me : To make money , To keep myself busy , To learn something meaningful, Self-satisfraction..bla bla. Actual thing is 'Jai Jai Money'

I : But what will you do with this money ??

Me : I can get things of my necessity and luxury.

I : what ??

Me : I will enjoy my life comfortably.These things will make my life easy.I will fulfill all my desires.

I : But there is no end to desires and comfort ?? So, your chase will go on ??

Me : May be...chase for money to get easy life..tat is also interesting

I : Easy life will make you happy and is this is the only solution ??

Me : Ofcourse

I : But there are many others who are not in this race and dont have easy life but are still happy.

Me : Who ??

I : Take example of Buddha.He renounced all luxuries and became sanyasi

Me : Hey yaar..it differs from person to person..its individual perspective

I : dont you think that avarice is root of evils ??

Me : Ya..i have heard about it

I : And is it money only that gives satisfraction ??

Me : Money is the symbol of power. It shows your worth.Your Manager is earning more than you because he is much experienced and have more knowledge.

I : My manager- ha ha ha..

Me : It was just an example.Money has power and its you who is going to control that power.Power in good hands is blessing otherwise disaster.

I : But if a person is satisfied with the things he possess and doesnt run for money..world will be in peace

Me : Probability is good. But without that chase everything will come to a hault..there will be no competition, no invention,no development.

I : But whats the use of inventions and development..if we dont have peace !!

Me : Actually ,its not money which is root of evils it is... {{tring}} {{tring }} "Hello"...Excuse me.I will return in a minute.

Though Successful but Criticized-> 2007 !!

Take a break.Keep aside politics,philosphy,business,economy....Lets take a look at Indian Celeberities.Though Successful but Criticized...

AISHWARYA RAI (***)
Goddess or just Hyped ???As an actress,only few of her movies recieved wide acclaim.She had been in controversy with Salman khan,Vivek Oberoi.And is knocked for marrying Abhishek Bachchan..bcoz of influence of Bachchan family on film industry and politics.(However,she is my personal favourite :-) )

HIMESH RESHAMIYA (****)
Things worth noting about him is his adenoidal voice and his bent for repeating everything, from phrases to words to syllables to monosyllables.One thing is to be appreciated, he is always in lime light, whether it is his cap,nasal singing,mallika,music,acting etc. he know how get attention

RAKHI SAWANT (*****)
She succeeded in surviving in Bollywood and Indian media by her anticsHer comment: “Mein ek bharatiyan nari hun … mein gaal pe kiss allow kar sakti hu, lips pe nahin” (I am an Indian woman. I can allow a kiss on the cheeks but not on my lips) is quite popularThings to her fame- few item songs,Mika and the kiss,big boss,some C-grade movies...Kofee with Karan and now a Dance Show

SANIA MIRZA (***)
Has potential, but a little too arrogant, which would be fine if she actually won something. The perfect poster child: young, good looking woman ? The woman who will catalyse the tennis' popularity in India? Or will she be more a consistent winner on the world stage, a top ten ranker on a regular basis?

MALLIKA SHERAWAT (****)
Mallika Sherawat (Reema Lamba in Rohtak) Indian actress and model has a degree in philosphy from Delhi University Today,She is considered as the Sex symbol of India. She is well known for her kisses and outspoken bold statements

ABHISHEK BACHCHAN (**)
His flops are more than his hit movies.Forget that....there are only a few movies in which he had acted well.Had been in news because of his marriage with Aishwarya Rai and relationship with Karishma Kapoor.Biggest asset ,his father Amitabh bachchan"He is the best actor after late Raj Kapoor. He has recently been appointed visiting professor at Harvard" - Ya...you are right,it is 1st April.

SHILPA SHETTY (****)
As actress,there is nothing much to tell about her.The only thing to her claim is her success in Big BrotherOther things are - publicity stunt about Richard Gere kissing her,mafia links, obscenity chargesAfter receiving an honorary doctorate from Leeds Metropolitan University in the United Kingdom, Dr Shilpa Shetty recently receive the 'Rajiv Gandhi National Quality Award',just bcoz she won 'Big brother'...


Whatever,they are famous,successful and have brought laurels to the nation (not applicable to all of them )

Self realization - -> "Aham Brahma Asmi "

Religion is what ?? Some set of beliefs and practices held by a group of people which are being followed blindly. Or rules which helps in making society a better place to live. Dont Know !! Whatever,the ultimate goal of each religion is to spread communal harmony. Community will be happy only if all its individual are happy. So,the solution lies at the individual level,the level of "self".

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It has been said

" That life-energy isn't something which can be expressed verbally, yet it is the source of all languages. It is invisible, yet it makes us see. It cannot be known through logic or philosophy, yet the powers of reason and memory spring from it. It is the Self in every single being and experiencing it, realizing it, is our natural dharam "

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Most present Gurus narrates Ramayana and Gita. Others stresses on the importance of fasts and charity. Only a few are showing the path to the peace. How by individual actions one can spread harmony and how to manifest 'Knowledge in Action'.

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Rather than bothering about religion,one should be concerned about 'self'. "Self Realization" is very important thing. Once a man realizes this, he is able to differentiate between good and evil which will make him prosper, his community prosper, his country prosper.